Summer Humility

During the spring season I asked God for a few things: grace, a greater capacity to love, and humility. Even though I know what I’m asking for, and I know God answers me, I am always surprised by his response. This summer was a summer of humility for me. I went from being one of the top people at my work – training and being respected as a leader – to being on the bottom of the totem pole; In a new position, where I need to be trained and corrected. I went from pursuing a relationship with someone who is very dear to my heart to no relationship at all. I thrive off of being with people. They energize me and keep me in the boundaries of normality, least I get lost in the recesses of my mind , yet I spent the vast majority of my summer alone. I went from being someone that could take people where they needed to go, To not having any form a transportation and having to rely on other people myself.



God really knows how to answer prayer. In all of this God was bigger than life for me. I lived In grace everyday because I was constantly be humbled the only thing I could firmly hold was His grace. And love, I am learning to love, every day. I get to experience Jesus love more every day, but I also get to understand his love a little more. Its heart opening when you truly love someone, who doesn’t return or even acknowledge that love. It’s a whole other playing field. In this realm you can be hurt more easily, but you can love more freely, and know Jesus love a little more clearly. In the lack of people that were constantly around it freed up my time, and my thoughts to spend with the Lord. I walk into my home now and instantly relax knowing that it is me and Jesus time; even if I never say anything. I just realize His presence and there is such a peace and grace in know He is right beside me. The Holy spirit leaps with happiness :) it get me all excited. In my need to rely on other people it has given them an opportunity to give to the Lord because they are giving to me. Yet another humbling lesson I needed to learn. God’s world is bigger than the little world that I put myself in. He is so much greater.


Thank you Lord for answering my prayers. You always surprise me. I am humbled by your attention to me and so glad that you are here. Thank you papa, for an unforgettable summer and for letting me get to know you more.


With all my love,

Heidi