presence

Last night was Worship night at faith assembly. It was amazing. :) i looove worshiping our king with other people. It doesnt happen nearly enough for me. I love to dance in worship so when they told everyone they could come to the front, I went to the side so i could have my space. dont wanna be hitting people while i dance lol. while I was over there I noticed another woman that stood beside me. I dont know this girl at all but I see her often at my old youth group. she is a sister in worship for sure! we seriously looked at each other, had silent confirmation and joy and they we both just started dancing in woship, I love it! and i told her so afterward too :) another thing that I always end up doing is turning and looking at everyone who is worshipping. To see a group of people lifting their hands to the Lord and singing in unison; that brings me to my knees. I cant imagine what the Lord feels who is receiving the worship and praise. How it must warm his heart.
In the middle of a song, they started singing a line that said "you bring us back to where it all began..." and went on from there. well until that moment I had completely put it out of my mind but at that exact altar is where I rededicated my life to christ almost 7 years ago. He really had brought me back to where His Transformation of my life began. I could remember vividly the way I felt. sitting in one of the back rows with a group of my friends. The altar call was being made. I didnt feel the need to respond, I was already saved. I knew who God was. but the speaker kept calling over and over again. at that point my head was down and my eyes were focused on the abise of the mind. Then I felt a hand take mine. and I got up, i didnt realize till that moment that I was crying. and I was also shocked to realize that there was no one there holding my hand, but it felt like someone was. I passed my my friends sitting in their seats, who were rather suprised to see me walking toward the front. The funny thing is so was I. but the whole time I felt like holy spirit just took my hand, guided me to the altar and held it while I spoke my heart to the Lord. My life has never been the same.
Now here I was worshipping the king of kings at the same altar, blessing the lord. and the altar was filled with people lifting their hands to him. Its funny that I was giving glory to God yet I was being overwhelmed by who He is. Jesus is so good.
near the end I went to the back so I could actually dance and not be in  anyones way and I searioulsy couldnt stop laughing in my spirit the whole time. Im sure I looked ridiculous. but it was soo good. to get down in the presence of the lord.

God is so worthy of all that we are. In every moment. with every word we breath, with every move of our hand He is worthy to be worshipped. I dont want to take a step where He is not walking. I dont want to speak a word that is not honoring. I want to look with his eyes and listen with His spirit and speak with His wisdom. because He is worthy and requires nothing less than that. Me.